ohhhhhhhhhhhh yeahhhhhhh!!!

Photographer: Maria Lundgren (the location and time of this photo has nothing to do with tonight's event)

Dancing tonight at Tangopalatset made me feel alive! I loved every second, smiled constantly at everyone and got to dance about 25 times on the social dance, and before that there was 1,5 hours of dancing at the course. I loved loved loved loved loved it. Who needs anything else? It's really coming together now so much more than before. I get alot of advice from the pros there. Danced with Erik, Anton - one of the teachers - I love dancing with him!, Krister, Anders (from course), Magnus from course and Micke and a bit with Ingrid and Finn.

Anyway, wow what a cool night. It's one of them days when you wish you could have stayed there until death do us part.

Tvåsamhetens vara eller icke-vara

En tanke slår mig när jag försöker sova. Många människor befinner sig i förhållanden som inte är bra för dem, kanske rentav destruktiva. Kanske märks det knappast på ytan, men under den, ligger frustrationen och gror. I ett intressant samtal med en killkompis för några veckor sedan diskuterade vi tvåsamhetens vara eller icke vara. Just då kände jag mig frustrerad och trött på allt vad förhållanden heter. Det gör jag nog fortfarande. Kommer någon för nära blir det ganska jobbigt. Får jag själv välja att komma någon nära, så känns det tryggare. Men en viktigare tanke slår mig alltså nu: Kanske det inte är tvåsamheten i sig det är fel på, utan faktiskt det liv jag valde att leva under en period? Personen i fråga och jag var kanske helt enkelt bara galet fel för varandra? Kanske det en dag kan bli underbart med någon som är ämnad för mig? Kanske kan man må bra igen med någon man faktiskt har en massa gemensamt med?

LIfe's little mysteries.

To desire something we cannot have is inevitable.
To get something we do not desire - is that our destiny?
Sure seems like it. Why can't things be in reverse?

A very cool ending to a crap day

Today has been dull and lonely and uninspiring. I'm usually positive about things, but today wasn't one of those days. As mentioned before,however, I have corresponded back and forth with Tom, a lindy hop guru from Washington DC. His partner Debra is also super cool so I decided to write her an email. They run a business called Gottaswing. She responded with a nice, warm email saying that my first email to Tom impressed him and so he read it out from the stage at Glen Echo, the swing venue in DC - in front of about 700 people. Kind of flattering. I wrote about listening to swing for most of my life, but now, being able to USE it - like a perfect cartoon springing to life, was just superb.

Anyway, looking forward to further contact with both of them. I really like them very much.

Over and out.

dancing dilemma

Oh lordy. Yesterday Roger Berg big band played at Tangopalatset. They were absolutely brilliant, best I've heard in a long time, big band wise.
As for the dancing, Im getting more and more self-concious and I get frustrated when I don't pick up the lead properly. I think I need to dance with one of my pro friends for a bit longer to get more feedback soon. I have a few of them now so hopefully they will be nice and helpful. Sometimes it flows really smoothly, and at other times I feel like an idiot. I guess that's how the cookie crumbles... no?

Purple Haze

Isn't my rug fabulous!? I love it!
My parents are coming today for the first time. Should be fun and relaxing I hope. I'm bringing them to the dance tomorrow, because there is a big band playing, so everything should be swell. Personal goal this time is to not feel crap and sorry for myself but to dance as much as possible, maybe ask some "new" guys this time. Brave, braver, the bravest. Off we go!

Aunt visiting

Oh boy...
I'm off work at the moment and it feels really good. Trying to find things to do without getting too restless is a huge task for me. Not easy. My aunt has just been visiting for a few days. We went downtown etc, it was great. I also bought a purple rug, cool huh?
Monday night's dancing in Lund sucked donkey's ****! My follow skills were shit, and I felt awkward so I didn't ask anybody to dance. Some of the men who asked me to dance weren't very good leaders and that made me feel insecure too. I always like dancing with Micke R though, he's really cool! Thoughts go out to his girlfriend who was home sick that day. Credit also to Mårten again, who played King of the Road... oh yeah!!