Broken Hearts are for Assholes

... Zappa led the way. :) I have tidied away alot of things from my past in the house. It is quite a relief, but some of the stuff is very sad to see again. The memories I am most fond of I put away in a safe place. But the rest? Why do people hang on to junk for years and years, so their living space becomes one huge junk yard? It's so stressful. A clear space is a clear mind. I will hereby live by that. Weird how freeing it is to only have ONE spatula, ONE cheese slicer, ONE winebottle opener. Phew. I can now breathe again. I am not dead. It's now official. May life, my new one, begin.

THE ARK at the Festival

Photo by Patrick Persson

Went to see son-of-a-preacherman Ola Salo and his gang last night downtown. Close to 30, 000 had gathered at the end of the evening to see the show. And what a show it was! I'm somewhat disappointed that Ola didn't frenchkiss Martin this time around.

New Photoshoot by Rhys Jones

New photoshoot with Rhys Jones, the Welsh photographer. You can see more images here. This time, it was time to reunite with my old friend Jessica. We had a laugh 10 years ago, playing gigs, and busking in the streets of Malmö. I am especially fond of a memory when she, myself and Niall sang "the Boxer" for about 20 minutes non-stop (chorus only) and passers-by kept on giving us coins.

You can listen to our song "Forgotten and Forgiven" here. I will make a new website or profile on Myspace soon, and who knows, we may have some more songs coming.

Finding nice flat in nice area. Done.

I just bought an apartment. My first. Fantastic feeling because I feel like a winner today. I found a really neat one, in a nice area that I really like. I am rather chuffed!!

I am very much looking forward to awesome dinner parties in that kitchen...

Fuck me! (Quite literally this time)

In times of despair, it's great to know that good ol' Gordon keeps up the good work at the hot plate.
GR to Edwina Currie (one of the many celebs to participate in Hell's Kitchen UK):
Do you always two-time people Edwina? First you're shagging the Prime Minister, and now you're shagging me up the arse from behind!"

Yes. Quite. :)

Fingers crossed for cute apartment

Hi all.

I have now been looking at 20 or so apartments, and it's tricky to find one that I like and can afford. I am not willing to trade this great house and garden for the most shabby place I have ever seen. That's why I keep looking. Hopefully soon, a bit of luck will come my way.

Apart from apart-ment hunting I still go out with friends alot. This weekend I had a great time with childhood friends / sisters Mia and Tina Ottosson, and Tina's boyfriend K-G. This weekend saw the beginning of this years' Malmö Festival. I am not too keen on all the people downtown, but very much enjoy the food stands as well as the great variety of concerts. Will see the ARK on Friday for sure. This weekend we all had a laugh at my old favourite place "Gatan Bar" with my friend Dimman.

When Tina and Mia were here, we recorded some stuff in the studio. May as well make the most out of that perfect room. Despite everything that has happened, I am so greatful that I have had that studio. It's brought so much joy into my life recently. I am going to continue running the business when I move, if it's the last thing I do.

Sweet and sour

It's been ages since I last posted. As most of you are aware, my life took a drastic turn a few months ago. I have been keeping myself busy with practical things such as selling the house and looking for a new place to live. Succeeded in selling the house with a profit. That's the sweet. The sour is that I still haven't found an apartment. Finding apartments in this town is dreadfully difficult at the moment. At least if you want something decent. But no doubt will a nice lovely place pop up sooner or later. Sooner rather than later, I hope.

I'm enjoying socialising with friends and their friends at the moment. I go out alot and laugh a lot. It makes a nice refreshing change in my life. Yesterday I treated myself to scollops and an exquisite glass of fine white wine at Lilla Torg. In my solitude, just enjoying my own company. Fan-fucking-tastic. Apart from that, I play at Bodoni again with or without Jessica. I also have had 3 customers in the studio which is great news. Business is going well, and I hope I can continue running it smoothly in a new apartment. Some concerts and big parties are coming up, so that's also great! Will start work again on Monday (not so great).

This truly has been the worst 8 weeks of my entire life. I have gone through alot during this time and it has been very odd not being able to share it with the person I have shared everything with for the last ten years. Sadly, it's the end of a chapter, but hopefully the start of a new, improved one. I go through alot of emotions. I miss, I hate, I loathe, I feel sorry for, I am worried, I am concerned, I am happy, I am relieved, I am sad, I am in love.... but with what? I know there is someone out there who will love me for me. I thought that was him, but aparently not.

Right now, however, I will enjoy life to the fullest, and do not need any man or anyone to make me happy. I must do that for myself and myself alone. See you all out there and watch this space.