Sweet and sour

It's been ages since I last posted. As most of you are aware, my life took a drastic turn a few months ago. I have been keeping myself busy with practical things such as selling the house and looking for a new place to live. Succeeded in selling the house with a profit. That's the sweet. The sour is that I still haven't found an apartment. Finding apartments in this town is dreadfully difficult at the moment. At least if you want something decent. But no doubt will a nice lovely place pop up sooner or later. Sooner rather than later, I hope.

I'm enjoying socialising with friends and their friends at the moment. I go out alot and laugh a lot. It makes a nice refreshing change in my life. Yesterday I treated myself to scollops and an exquisite glass of fine white wine at Lilla Torg. In my solitude, just enjoying my own company. Fan-fucking-tastic. Apart from that, I play at Bodoni again with or without Jessica. I also have had 3 customers in the studio which is great news. Business is going well, and I hope I can continue running it smoothly in a new apartment. Some concerts and big parties are coming up, so that's also great! Will start work again on Monday (not so great).

This truly has been the worst 8 weeks of my entire life. I have gone through alot during this time and it has been very odd not being able to share it with the person I have shared everything with for the last ten years. Sadly, it's the end of a chapter, but hopefully the start of a new, improved one. I go through alot of emotions. I miss, I hate, I loathe, I feel sorry for, I am worried, I am concerned, I am happy, I am relieved, I am sad, I am in love.... but with what? I know there is someone out there who will love me for me. I thought that was him, but aparently not.

Right now, however, I will enjoy life to the fullest, and do not need any man or anyone to make me happy. I must do that for myself and myself alone. See you all out there and watch this space.